My Christmas Gift

To my family and friends - old and new:

There is a lovely story of the romance between journalist-playwright Charles MacArthur and Helen Hayes, famous American actress. When they were young and about to be married, he bought her a bag of peanuts, presented them with a flourish, and said, "I wish they were emeralds." Years later, as he was dying, he gave her an emerald bracelet and said, "I wish they were peanuts."

Each year I face the same challenge keeping my peanuts and emeralds in perspective. I loved it when my babies were little and they enjoyed the box more than the toy that box contained. I had been frantically running around trying to find that special gift, within whatever budget we deem appropriate, for that special person for a myriad of reasons. I wonder of the importance of being instead of having or doing and if maybe the best gift of all is to simply BE who you are with everyone in your life that is important to you. Expensive and fancy gifts, even if they satisfy wants, rarely meet genuine needs. Christmas gifts to family can be expensive distractions enabling us to perhaps avoid or postpone the gift of self. I havent seen you all year but here's some chocolate. mmm.........

Its not the money that we spend on the gifts. Sometimes we tend to think that money can buy anything. But it doesn't. Money is a very important tool which we use according to our personal value system.

Nature itself charges us with ambition, which prompts mankind to cultivate, build, establish cities, and to invent and improve all the sciences and arts, which ennoble and embellish human life.
Earning more $ will not give any one of us lasting happiness. It is in our nature that we adapt to improvements in our lives, whether those improvements arise from more $ or other desirable things, so that the additional happiness they bring is temporary. There is much wisdom knowing that the journey is more important than the destination. Human happiness comes from striving for improvements and from the sense of achievement gained by overcoming the challenges we face along the way, not from docile dependence on others. The happiness gained from struggle and achievement may be temporary, but fortunately our insatiable desire for more of life’s good things guarantees that new struggles and achievements are always available for replenishing our happiness. Furthermore, we can take pleasure in knowing that when we struggle to improve our conditions by pursuing $ in an enterprise, we are increasing opportunities for others to improve their conditions as well.

During the year, I played The Prosperity Game. You set up an Accounting Package - QuickBooks or MYOB or Excel spreadsheet or just print fake deposits and cheques for your PROSPERITY BANK ACCOUNT. Every day for one year, the Universe makes a deposit into this account. $1000.00 on the first day, then $2000 on the second day, then $3000 on the third day and so forth until on the 365th day the deposit is $365000.00. Each day you have to spend the entire amount of the deposit. I think in total it is $66Million. You can do daily or just do as much as you can each day until you spend one years worth. I got to day 87 and became qiote disheartened as I realised that the $ would not buy me what I truly wanted. Love and Relationships. It’s the people in your life that money cannot buy. It’s the YOU in your own life that money cannot buy.

It is in the taking a little time out from our daily stuff to appreciate how much we have achieved already and how blessed we are that we are most wealthy. It is in the seeing that we already have everything that we want and need. It is in the gratitude for our lives just as they are that we truly are rich.

So in the spirit of the Solstice or Christmas or whatever you choose to celebrate, I cannot give you anything for you already have everything in abundance. You already have my love and friendship and gratitude. My gift to you is the reminder of what you already have that money most definitely cannot buy.

Childish Wonder
Community
Contentment
Dreams
Family
Friends
Health
Hugs
Intelligence
LOVE
Nature
Perfection
Respect
The bit of you that is YOU that no one else can see – your feelings, your thoughts, your ideas, your YOU.
Time
Talent
Sunrise
Sunset
Patterns in the Clouds
Tomorrow
Today
Yesterday
Your breath
Your Life

Enjoy the box these gifts come in...................

Depression

Depression is natural.
Elation is natural.
Depression and Elation balance each other.

For me, growing up in a typical family, unbalanced views were espoused and life was broken up into good and bad. We lived in shades of black and white.

I was my own family urban legend and I willingly subscribed to it.
As with most families, I was a mirror and they only saw one side of me.
To my parents, I was such a Nicki.
To this day, I’m not sure what it was that they saw, but growing up, I was sure it was the worst thing in the world. Of course now I understand that they saw themselves.
But as a child, being such a Nicki was a negative.
Being such a Nicki was totally depressing.

I assumed I was always depressed; until I actually experienced real Depression for the very first time several years ago.

Now looking back I realise that I was a cup is half full kinda person and was upbeat, sunny, happy and positive as much as I was a cup is half empty, dark, sad and negative soul.

Great adventures shifted the parameters of my life, and I have periodically swung from Elation to Depression - just like every other human being does.

Thumbing my way through a dictionary, I recognise the press’s I pushed.
I was Depressed, Suppressed, Repressed and Oppressed.

To depress means to push down.
To suppress means to hold back.
To repress means to keep inside.
To oppress means to keep down.
To press means to force down.

There’s much happening DOWN and BACK and INSIDE isn’t there?

The most incredible discovery for me in all of this was that this journey did involve a perpetrator and a victim and a hero. However they were all ME as I attracted mirrors of them in every area of my life.

I pushed myself down, held back, and kept everything inside and down until there was nothing.

Nothing.

And in that nothingness, I was able to see what the hell it was that I was pushing, holding and keeping down.

It was me.

I would never have seen me without the gift of depression.
I would never have seen who I was without that period of intense depression.

Then once I saw me, I was still depressed.

WHY?

Depression is a symptom specifically designed to break fantasy. What was the fantasy that I held onto? OMG where do I start? My life has always been BIG. Grand vision, big plans, large expectations, major life purpose, monstrous mission all accompanied by a healthy helping of ego. I’m better than this. I can do this. I will not let this stop me. I can achieve that. I’m not a loser like everyone else.

Really? mmmm..............

I believed I was different. I was special. I was unique. I was better.

When I deemed I was NOT (while evaluating myself according to the benchmark of others), then I became disappointed with myself and sank into depression.

I had subordinated myself to someone ELSE's values and standards and expectations
and was judging myself based on THEIR values and NOT mine.

This cycle continued to perpetuate.

Aspire, Dream, Attempt, Fail, Fall, Despair and Depress.
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Aspire, Dream, Attempt, Fail, Fall, Despair and Depress.
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Aspire, Dream, Attempt, Fail, Fall, Despair and Depress.
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All of these actions were very real however in my perceptions of them I only saw ONE side.
What was the OTHER side that I was choosing to ignore?

An aspiration takes one on a journey to seek to find.
A dream gives you the chance to seek what you wish for.
An attempt shows great courage and faith.
To fail provides the opportunity for feedback, education, alternatives and more information, which will lead you to success.
Falling can only happen from above. This shows how high you actually were in the first place.
Despair is felt when you recognize the joy that you seek in the first place.
Depress is to push down. You need energy to push. Pushing DOWN can only occur when you recognize that you were UP.

Doesn’t sound like you were in such a bad place after all now does it?

Here is the deal.
All of this serves us.
Everything we do serves us.
Everything that we experience is perfect for us right now.
Everything in our lives is in balance and in order.

I will always be depressed and always be elated until I simply observe these "feelings" and simply say" OK This is how I am right now. Not WHO I am, just how."

Who needs a label anyway? Hey I'm simply playing the human game and checking out as many traits and experiences as I can!

Prosperity

It seems that life as we know it is all about working hard and playing hard while filling nearly every moment with activity.

Our families believe they cannot survive without two incomes to pay for a standard of living that has doubled in the past 50 years. Who said: Spending money we don’t have to buy things we don’t need to impress people we don’t like?

Here’s an alternative radical thought – could we work less, want less and spend less? Could this lead to a happier and more fulfilled lifestyle? What do we REALLY want? What is the essence of happiness? Is happiness connected to our financial value?

Here’s a suggestion – try to play the Prosperity Game. Here’s how:

You set up an Accounting Package - QuickBooks or MYOB or Excel spreadsheet or just print fake deposits and cheques for your PROSPERITY BANK ACCOUNT. Every day for one year, the Universe makes a deposit into this account. $1000.00 on the first day, then $2000 on the second day, then $3000 on the third day and so forth until on the 365th day the deposit is $365000.00. Each day you have to spend the entire amount of the deposit. I think in total it is $66Million. You can do daily or just do as much as you can each day until you spend one years worth.

Half way through this game you realise that prosperity is actually NOT about the money at all.

The things I REALLY wanted in my life could NOT be bought.

Try the exercise and find out what you REALLY want in your life and how much prosperity you already have.

Upgrade of Business

There are two key ingredients to every business.

Number one: The Business Owner
Number two:The Customer.

Number one: The Business Owner
Businesses inevitably are an extension of the owner. My businesses are most definitely an extension of me. My voids drive my business enterprises.

A small business or a huge corporation, the culture is almost always dictated from the top down. This can positively or negatively affect all aspects of the company. My personal strengths and weaknesses are reflected in the strengths and weaknesses of my businesses.

Before I can upgrade my business interests, I need to look at myself.

What are my values?
Where are my strengths?
Where are my weaknesses?

Quality Questions getting to the very core of me will greatly determine these answers.

Number Two:The Customer.

They pay for the product or service.
Their $$ is the objective of the enterprise.
No business without them.

Seriously, it doesn’t matter what you sell - bands, words, apples or promises. To make the most of your business you will need to develop satisfied loyal quality customers.

Satisfied customers are those people who are happy with your products and services, but may not come back again and will still go to competitors depending on price and convenience.
Loyal customers keep coming back again and again because you have developed a relationship with them and they value the network and relationship.
Quality customers value your service and show it by paying for it on time.

Satisfied Loyal Quality Customers provide invaluable word of mouth referrals which are a cost effective marketing tool for your business.

To understand your customers, identify their values and voids by asking quality questions.

Continue to ask questions, never rest on your laurels, never be afraid to value yourself, your products and your services and value your customers by providing the best products and services possible for the price that is charged.

The upgrade of my business will be complete when there no longer IS a business to upgrade.

Whats the deal with Nine?

What is the significance of the number nine?
My old favourite 432 = 4 + 3 + 2 = 9. So why are numbers so significant?

The number nine is a most remarkable number in many respects. All who study the occult sciences holds it in great reverence; and in mathematical science it possesses properties and powers, which are found in no other number. It is the last of the digits, and thus marks the end; and is significant of the conclusion of a matter. Likewise nine added or deducted from any number gives a figure with the numerical total unchanged. It is akin to the number six, six being the sum of its factors (3x3=9, and 3+3=6), and is thus significant of the end of man, and the summation of all man's works.

In Roman Catholic Europe, when the Angelus tolls (at morning, noon, and evening), it ring 3+3+3 and then 9 times, in celebration of the Virgin's conception of the Savior.

In ancient Greece, 9 was the number of the Muses, patron goddesses of the arts. They were the daughters of Mnemosyne ("memory"), the source of imagination, which in turn is the carrier of archetypal, elementary ideas to artistic, realization in the field of space-time.

The number 9, that is to say, relates traditionally to the Great Goddess of Many Names (Devi, Inanna, Ishtar, Astarte, Artemis, Venus, etc.) as matrix of the cosmic process, whether in the macrocosm or in a microcosmic field of manifestation.

It is to be noticed, by the way, that 1+6+5+6 = 18, which is twice 9, while 4+3+2=9: 9 being a number traditionally associated with the Goddess Mother of the World and its gods. In India the number of recited names in a litany of this goddess is 108. 1_-0_8=99, while 108 x 4-432.

The ancient Greeks noticed the movement of nine planets around the Sun.

The Ennead, or nine-pointed star, is an ancient and sacred symbol. It comprises three trinities. The Egyptian, Celtic, Greek and Christian myths all have an ennead of nine gods and goddesses, representing the entire archetypal range of principles.

The tail feathers number nine, the number of degrees in the Chapter, Council, and Commandery of the York Rite of Freemasonry.

In traditional worldwide number lore, nine, or thrice three, was referred to as “the horizon” symbolizing the ultimate, the maximum, “the whole nine yards”. This class will look at the ways people have revered the number nine and its principles through their arts, crafts, architecture, literature, mathematics, mythology, religion and folk-sayings, from "cloud nine" and a pagoda’s nine levels to a cat’s nine lives. Casual attire: no need to “dress to the nines”.

Nine was considered sacred and not assigned a numerical equivalent to any letter in the Chaldean alphabet. It takes nine calendar months to bring a baby into the world from its initial conception. Nine carried a special significance for ancient Chinese regarding odd numbers as being masculine and even numbers as being feminine. "Nine", which is the largest single digit number was taken to mean the "ultimate masculine" and was, therefore, symbolic of the supreme sovereignty of the emperor. For this reason, the number "nine" (or its multiples) is often employed in palace structures and designs.

"The Ennead "flows around the other numbers within the Dekad like an ocean." Nichomachus of Gerasa" Multiplying by nine reveals mirror symmetry among numbers. If any number is multiplied by nine the resulting digits always add to nine. For example 2 x 9 = 18; 3 x 9 = 27, 4 x 9 = 36 and so on.

Thus, the Hebrews referred to nine as the symbol of immutable Truth.

The magic square is also considered sacred and full of power in the Islamic, Tibetan, Buddhist, Celtic, Indian and Jewish traditions. A magic square is when each number is used only once, but the horizontal, vertical and diagonal sums are all equal. The Chinese have patterned their architectural temples along the harmonious principles of the magic square.

In Indian philosophy the number nine is closely associated with the process of creation in the cosmic time cycle. The entire cosmic cycle consists of three phases -- creation, preservation and dissolution. Each of these three parts split into triads (3x3=9) brings the numerical order to nine.

Gurdjieff also uses it, called the Enneagram. This system is very old, and is believed to have originated with the Sufis in the Middle East. It groups people into nine types ('ennea' is Greek for the number nine.) The system teaches that people in a given type often behave and react in similar ways.

A Symbol of Truth, Source of Magic and Power and a System that categorises Human Behaviour - NINE certainly packs a punch as a number.

Watch your life this week and observe how much nine plays a part!

Is it always like this?

I get asked this question every single day - "Is there something wrong with the world in the 21st century or is it always like this?"

As we collect global data, statistics and rhetoric for the ultimate project – survival, in order to see the whole picture it is important for us to seek a balanced view.

Ask yourself this:

Can we identify the commonality between all so-called perpetrators and victims? Without the other side, this story is becoming quite a Greek Soap Opera. The challenge is for each story highlighting a perceived negative; we need to also find an equally positive one.

Who do we think are global predators?
And where are they positively contributing, supportive and loving?

An analysis of this collected data is forming a beautiful portrait of a world in transition – in another cycle. Look at the world order – the old and the prospective new. What is being expressed and repressed by each and what are the benefits and drawbacks of these?

When the world's media frenzy focuses on some tragedy somewhere - oops look a tsunami - here comes another hurricane - ah too bad an earthquake – did ya hear bout dem dere darn air crashes - ooh miners trapped underground - MEANWHILE somewhere someone is doing something (cue dramatic music!!!!)

What is happening elsewhere in the world undetected, as we are kept mindlessly distracted by daily regurgitations?

The questions from my clients continue.

How does this affect me?
Where do I fit?
How can I connect my interests (doing what I love) with the world present form and voids + future requirements to find an opportunity for me to capitalise on a new enterprise catering for a world in transition?

My answer is there is no WHY I could possibly give you to explain YOUR view of the world.

Is there a way - a system to identify and recognise the current form you are dealing with so you can better plan and prepare during this global transition?

The answer is inside of you.
The answer is in the system and structure of your own life right now.
The answer is in the observation of humanity in its systems and structure right now.
The answer is in the observation of the earth - nature - in its systems and structure right now.

Observe and study yourself.
What are your interests?
What are your needs?
What do you identify as holding value in your life?
What do you think is missing in your life?
Where is it but not yet integrated, appreciated and valued as it is without limitations?

Ask the same questions for Humanity?
Ask the same questions for the Earth?

So is there really something wrong right now?
Is it always like this?

Order Reigns

The family is the fundamental social dynamic. Order reigns no matter what.

Supposedly in the 21st Century, most families are dysfunctional. Compared to what?

The trick for humanity is to see that there is balance in regardless of how unbalanced it may all appear.

Relationships begin and relationships end with each setting of the sun. Watch the dynamics of your circle when one person leaves! Somewhere somehow one or many people will express what your ex partner did. You won't miss a thing!

In a family dynamic, what one-person represses, another will express.

In a social group, what one-person suppresses, another will express.

In a workplace, what one-team member represses, another will express.

In a society, what one individual suppresses, another will express.


For an interesting group exercise, I asked each of my children to make lists of everything they liked and loathed in each other. When I examined the lists, there was a balance of positives and negatives. Buttons are being pushed to express something that is being suppressed. This is an important function of family. Unfortunately, for some reason, the education of humanity does not seem to extend to this basic function and therefore families fight, fall apart and fail to see the beauty in the dynamic order.

We forget to see the love because holding onto the pain seemingly holds more short-term benefits. We forget that we are each privileged to be a part of each other’s growth and evolution.

Examine your life through the eyes of a scientist collecting valuable data for a case study. What you no longer express due to whatever reason will be expressed by someone around you. You may have been beautiful in youth and now your daughter expressed this on your behalf. You may have had a budding musical career in your 20s and now your eldest child expresses it on your behalf. Your artistic ability long forgotten in the day to day dirge will emerge in one of your mates. The anger you try so hard to hide will be loudly and resoundingly expressed and shared by a child, a parent or a partner or even a client. There is no escape. Nature is filled with scavengers - waste not want not. If you don't use it, someone else will.When they realise that we were all brought together for a divine purpose, eventually they will transcend into states of unconditional love for themselves and each other.

Our experiences - however painful or pleasureable they appear are exactly what we need. It may be perceived that our lives are failures and irresponsible and simply wrong. The reality is that our heart instinctively KNOWS there is some sort of divine order underlying the web of life and just nods and smiles whenever we question ourselves.

We’re all the same.

We’re all balanced.

We’re all in order.

All we need is the faith and the trust that all is in order.

I ask

To the Universe, We give thanks for our lives and ask your help to live as human beings. We ask you to recognize this sacred circle and hear our prayers.

Teach us the ways of respect.

To the Air and the Wind in the East, I ask you to watch over the old ones in my family. Keep them healthy until it is their time to cross over then take them quickly. I give thanks for my four children and the passage into their earth walk from my womb. Help them to continue to see each day through the eyes of a child, fill their hearts and heads with wonder and to take each step in the knowledge of the seven generations before them and the seven generations to come.

To the Earth in the North, through our feet, we draw strength from you. You nurture and shelter us. Even though we do not respect you as we should, season after season, you continue to feed us and clothe us. Again and again, we come to you, placing our feet upon your soft earth, your skin – feeling your heartbeat, feeling your lifeblood. We ask you to teach us about love. We ask you to teach us about forgiveness. We ask you to teach us about trust.

To the Moon Goddess, thank you for your gift of life to me as a woman so that for a short time, I existed as one with each of my children.

To the Fire of the Sun in the West, thank you for teaching us that no matter how dark the night, there is always light. To the Fire of the stars, and the lightning and the thunder, I thank you for continuing to re energize the earth with your incredible power. I ask that you feed our bodies with that same power and energy so that we may become healing pipelines for all who come into contact with us.

Love is not simply a groan of pleasure or a sweet word. Like the Fire, Love is fierce and demanding. Without its fire, its strength and its commitment, how can it sustain in the warp of time? I ask you to fire the love that surrounds us, breathe it to life, and inflame the passions which bring joy and pain.

To the Water and the Waves and the Rivers and the Oceans in the South, I bring every broken heart. Within this circle, I ask you to see the heart of humanity and touch it to its very core. If it be good for the masculine and for feminine, I ask you to find a way for them to come together. If it not be good for either, I ask that you find a way to release them both into new dreams and hearts.

As pines keep the shape of the wind, even when the wind has fled and is no longer there, so words guard the shape of man, even when the man has fled and is no longer there. I ask that all words between us be worth the memory and the energy and the love.

432

It all began innocently as I re read Fingerprints of the Gods by Graham Hancock.
I was searching for something of interest to give my friends on their way to Egypt. Some idea, thought or concept to consider while exploring the Land of the Pharaohs.

I've always been attached to the legend of the Sphinx and the 3 pyramids at Giza in some sort of sub conscious fashion and was researching for some information of relevance in that area. Anyway, we all know that the three great pyramids at Giza and the Sphinx were part of an earth bound gigantic map of the skies as they supposedly appeared 10500 years ago.

WHAT I DID NOT REALISE!:
Earth's Polar Radius: The Pyramid embodies a scale ratio of 1/43200.
The height is 43200 = 3938.685 miles, which is the polar radius of the Earth.
Equatorial Circumference of the Earth: The Pyramid embodies a scale ratio of 1/43200.
The perimeter of the base * 43200 = 24,734.94 miles
This is also the rate of precession of the equinoxes.
This pyramid is like a map of the earth and the heavens.

Okay so is this 43200 number a coincidence? I investigated further.
This is what I discovered:
The smallest basic unit of time is called a respiration. Aside from the obvious correspondence to the length of a human breath, four seconds is very precisely one minute of arc of the apparent revolution of the sun about the earth during a day. If one considers a half breath (inbreath or out breath) this is 1/43,200 of a day. These digits also feature in Hindu and Mayan chronologies.
1/43,200 is the Shutter Speed of a camera.
In any bet or competition, the largest odds are 1:43200
Time Calculation: Twelve hours constitutes a unit (one rotation of the hour hand) of 12 x 60 = 720 minutes, and 12 x 3,600 = 43,200 seconds, conversely giving the smallest unit the implication of 1/720 or 1/43,200.
For thousands of years, Maps have been and still are printed on 13 by 19 inch paper in the scale 1:43,200, or one inch equals 3600 feet.
A 4320-year quantum is exclusive reality of non-local (solar space)

My question now? How on earth did the Egyptians know all of this let alone build it into their pyramids?
My search today took my to some incredible books and sites.
The biggest bombshell for me was that Dr Demartini speaks of Plancks dimensions all the time when discussing the collapse in quantum physics. Well, today I discovered that Plancks is the guy who identified 4320 as being the universal measurement of time and space. Coincidence? Keep going - 2012 and the Mayan Calendar also measure by - guess what - yep - 43200.
I believe now that all discussions and research and education is mathematical in nature and origin and therefore it will be in the numbers that our answers and keys will lie.
An exceptionally talented metaphysician recently told me that nothing is ever what it seems - it is merely a smaller bit of something bigger!
Do we measure all the bits in a formula calculated on 43200?
4 + 3 + 2 = 9. What does a 9 signify?
I guess my next search is all about 9.